7 days!

I did in fact finish off the 7 days of no yelling. It was a success however about 15 days into it, I yelled at my kids because it couldn't be avoided! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I felt better and now I am very careful about what I yell at them about which is a good thing.

All in all, it made me realize that I yelled at my kiddos way too much. Not saying that it didn't feel good because yelling for me is a release but it made me really start tinking about other ways to communicate with the kids and make things really happen. There was a couple of days there that they just flat out didn't listen to me at all because they knew that I wasn't going to yell at them. Those little turkeys but that pretty much stopped after I told them that I wanted to yell at them so bad that I was doing everything I could in my power not to yell at them. They bought it and stopped.

Anyway, YES! If I can do it, you can do it too. Try it!

Going on Day 5 (the no yelling experiment)

By day three, the kids hadn't even noticed that I hadn't yelled at them for 3 days. They were still acting terrible though and I had to muster all my patience and strength not to just blow my top and scream at the top of my lungs. I know yelling doesn't solve anything but damn it would feel good to just get it out of my lungs!

So, so far, no yelling. Day 5 is going well.

Last night I had very little sleep and weird dreams when I did sleep. Just kid of long drawn out dreams that involved me being in high school and being late and having a cut above my right eye brow and the counselor making kind of a big deal and me basically skipping all my classes and just kind of hiding out. What the heck?!?!

January First Twenty-Eleven

Oh yeh! It's the new year! I am one of those optimists who always believes that the new year is a time for fresh new beginnings. I'm also one of those people who has a list about 10000 miles long of all the things I want to do in the new year and I am one of those people who accomplish only about 2 of the things I set out to do... NOT THIS YEAR! I have a more manageable list this year....

take a picture everyday
be kind
smile
love some more
love myself more
read again
enjoy time to myself

I think I can swing those.

Avoidance: Reverb10

Prompt: Beyond avoidance. What should you have done this year but didn't because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)

I should have started exercising on a regular basis... I didn't do it because I was lazy mostly. I am lazy but I should be. I just can't help it. I don't like to exercise. AND I like food. What can I say?

In addition to being lazy, I was also really really busy this year. But I'm going to be not so busy in 2011, I think. I mean, I won't have a jobby job so that will give me at least 40 hours a week to do something productive with the exercise and the diabetes thang!

Healing: Reverb10

December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)

I haven't healed yet.... I'm still hurt. I am starting to feel better about things though but often times I find that I am still reeling from the feelings of betrayal. My Mama is helping me get through it though. She really is. She has NO idea how great it is to have her here this holiday season. It means the world to me. She will be my healing...

Wisdom: Reverb10

December 10 – Wisdom Wisdom. What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out? (Author: Susannah Conway)

The wisest decision I made this year was to follow the path that is laid out in front of me instead of trying to find another way. It played out beautifully. Because of this decision, I was hurt and made to feel betrayal. It is all making me stronger and I'm going to be a better person for it...