Last night my kids spent the night at the ILs house. They do this quite often but last night was different.
I had just read a book called What Alice Forgot by Liane Moriarty. In short, it's about a woman who bonks her head and loses her memory. She doesn't remember the last 10 years of her life. A lot has happened in those 10 years. She doesn't remember her kids, herself or that she and her husband are going through a nasty divorce. Long story short, she starts to remember bits of her 10 years and she realizes that she doesn't really like the person she became and she wasn't the person she thought she was going to be.
Last night, the Husb and I were talking about our lives. Now I'm not kidding when I say that A LOT has changed in 10 years. 10 years ago we were career focused and buying a house in the suburbs. We were engaged to be married but not quite ready to start planning a wedding and I was still at the point where I could leave California if I had to and not look back.
Fast forward to today, I have twin babies that are going to be 8 years old in August, I am a stay at home mama who has a great group of friends that I am going to miss terribly when I go away on vacation for 3 weeks and I have a husband who I couldn't imagine my life without. It's amazing what 10 years can do. I could still leave California but there would be a piece of my heart staying behind.
If I lost 10 years of my memories it would be a sad thing. It would be terrible! I would miss the very things that have made me the person I am today. I would have missed so much that make me the spiritual, emotional, funny person I have become. There are some things I would change, I think everyone has those, you know, I would have probably taken better care of myself so I wouldn't have diabetes now but in general, I am happy with who I am. I am happy with the people that are in my life and I am happy at how my life is going. Life is good. Life is what it is because the last 10 years have helped shape me and our happy little world...
