I think that once we become pregnant something goes off in our heads that makes us feel like we can never ever have a life outside of our kids. Once you give birth, I think that same button that gets pushed also tells you that you can no longer say certain things out loud because you will be perceived, by everyone who hears you, to be a bad mama....
I'm glad to say that I realized, it's not true.
There are times when I long for my old life. It's one of those things where you want your cake and eat it too. I want to have my kiddos around but I also want to be able to be a little reckless with beer sometimes and have guilt-free time with my husband. I want to be able to do things on whims and maybe eat hot dogs and cake for dinner. Doesn't happen though. Partly because can you imagine a near 40 year old woman going to Gilman St. and listening to punk rock bands or dying her hair some crazy colour or even better, what if I still had all my original piercings in? Oh yeh, that would be awesome!
I realize that we have responsibilities now and that we are role models to our children but I also realize that I had a damn fun life BC (BC=Before Children).
Every mom out there understands where you are coming from, whether they are willing to admit it or not. I'm willing to admit it, which is why you and I get along so well!
ReplyDeleteThis past year I realized the importance of living a life that is more than just being "Responsible Mama" me. But it takes a LONG LONG time to shake off that "Oh...but people will think I'm a bad mom!!" voice.
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree with you more!! I love my little girl, but I do sometimes daydream of those BC days!! :)
ReplyDelete-your newest follower!! :)